Spring is upon us, and with the beginning of a new season, I find the need to reflect and share on the past few months.
At the end of April, I discovered a lump. It is literally one of those moments where your life flashes before you and you become aware of the things that you have done and those that you still want to do. Time instantly becomes more precious and all the unimportant things disappear.
Faith, love and prayers brought me through a month of extreme highs and lows. I went from a mammogram and a sonar that appeared fine, to an autopsy that was inconclusive. Then, finally my surgeon and I thought it best that we just removed the lump. Luckily, there was no sign of cancer, but those five stitches have changed my life. I have had stiches before, and two cesareans, but that little wound caught me off guard.
I did not tell many people about this, but now I feel it is important to share things like this. So many people go through similar experiences every day. A lot became very clear. Time with family and friends, doing what I love, not being so hard on myself and not worrying so much about the little things, are very important. I am so, SO grateful for my health now and blessed for the time that I have been given. I realise that it could have been very different, and for many it has been.
So, being bold is what I plan to be from now on. Sometimes as a mom, coming from a corporate environment and then suddenly being a stay-at-home and a work-from-home mom, you lose a little bit of confidence. Things that felt like second nature ten years ago, have become quite huge. To regain that confidence you need to do something for yourself as well. You need to be okay. Then you will be able to take care of everything and everyone else.
Last week, with the encouragement of my amazing husband, I took the first bold step, climbed on an aeroplane and went to Johannesburg for a few days, by myself. New business ideas, new people and many plans. Watch this space!
So, I challenge you, as we enter spring, to start doing all the things you have always wanted to. Bring out the bucket list, spend time with the people that matter to you, laugh, change your hairstyle, dance, eat chocolate… AND have your wardrobe restyled!
What are you waiting for?
Photo: Karen Winter Photography